But, there are times that I have wondered if I had heard God. There are times I feel like God is being silent. I don't like those times. Those times frustrate me and drive me crazy.
Sometimes, I have had to admit, God was speaking and I wasn't listening! It's kinda like the times that I ask my wife a question, she responds, I didn't hear and I ask again. So often I do that very thing with God. How about you?
In the past few months God has been working in my heart. He has shifted my heart to the place He wants me and has called me. It's been tough; even painful at times. I have had to change myself, my ministry and my approach to leadership. It has involved change and, let's be honest, none of us really like change. But, I stood confident that I am following God's direction and vision for me.
However, recently I've struggled with whether I had heard God clearly, and whether I was following faithfully in the right direction. Satan has used life's circumstances and my insecurity to create that doubt. I was trusting in myself, and not in God's sufficiency to carry me through. The result is fear, insecurity and worry....WHY? Because I know I am not capable and can fail. I needed to stop and lean back into God's promises in Philippians 4:13 and Luke 1:37 that I can do all things through Jesus and that in Him all things are possible!
The last few weeks I have been asking God to speak clearly and confirm what He is doing in my life, my ministry and our church. On Sunday evening God sent His answer! But, it wasn't until Monday evening I slowed down long enough to listen. But, in the moment I stopped worrying about me and my needs, I was able to hear God. God confirmed in my heart that He wanted me to keep moving and being faithful in the calling and vision He has placed in me. GOD IS GOOD!
Has there been a time in your life that you have felt as though you missed God speaking, or have felt as thought God was being silent?